a taste

i don't think i can never go back to the old way of life. it's only been a year, but it has been enough to reach a realisation. things may change again next year. i wonder what will happen.

to next year: BEH!?

kthnxbye

all the events of the year seem to be over. official canoeing trainings, my family returning, christmas, lan outing, blablabla and there's only new year left.

this year has definately been the most radical year of my life. living without my parents, coming to jc, starving in the comfort of my own home, kitchen floods, canoeing, overnight house cleaning, the disaster that was habannah, promotion panic, becoming a casual labourer, getting the worst sickness ever, return of the parents, etc. kinda disastrous and messed up but it was a learning experience.

hope next year is not as screwed up but i know it'll be. freaking A levels.

family is back from dubai. feels good to know that there is always food at home as long as my mum is around and no need to worry about laundry and dishes. my siblings haven't changed... much. or that's what i think anyway. they won't be here for long though, they're going back in abt 2 weeks. and the cycle repeats.

going for canoeing training tmr. haven't been down to the lake since i got that ub3r pwnage illness which caused me to lose 2 kg. i think i'm damn weak now. oh well.

jimi hendrix said,

Down the street you can hear her scream "you're a disgrace"
As she slams the door in his drunken face,
And now he stands outside and all the neighbours start to gossip and drool.

He cries "Oh girl, you must be mad,
What happened to the sweet love you and me had?"
Against the door he leans and starts a scene,
And his tears fall and burn the garden green.

And so castles made of sand, fall in the sea, eventually.

A little Indian brave who before he was ten, played war games in
the woods with his Indian friends, and he built a dream that when he
grew up, he would be a fearless warrior Indian Chief.

Many moons passed and more the dream grew strong, until tomorrow
He would sing his first war song,
And fight his first battle, but something went wrong,
Suprise attack killed him in his sleep that night

And so castles made of sand, melts into the sea eventually.

There was a young girl, whose heart was a frown,
Because she was crippled for life, and couldn't speak a sound
And she wished and prayed she would stop living, so she decided to die.
She drew her wheel chair to the edge of the shore, and to her legs she smiled

"You won't hurt me no more."
But then a sight she'd never seen made her JUMP AND SAY
"Look, a golden winged ship is passing my way"
And it really didn't have to stop...it just kept on going.
And so castles made of sand slips into the sea, 
Eventually.

have so much more to say but i'm a lazy person.

a short story

And so that's how I saved Christmas.

appreciation

you can only truly appreciate your health when you suddenly lose it and get totally screwed up.

tonight

its a cold night.

like freaking cold.

??

that was one awkward dream.

ok

i guess it's hard to see a good person go.

anyways maths teacher bugging me. gotta get started on those 9218462913857 tutorials i'm supposed to do.

hard day's night

the night is only gonna get harder.

one lit essay ahead of me before i get to sleep.

damn

i'm supposed to be at chalet, but i need to do lit homework first. dammit.

peons

first day of work at raffles city was quite exciting. there was a mad half an hour queue at the entrance for workpass collection so after getting one it was running all over the employee basement with kah ming to collect our jackets and then running all over the fourth floor trying to find our reporting place. gotta come earlier next time.

after getting to the correct room, there was this long briefing by the manager about all the dinner courses, procedures and sex. couldn't digest all the information before they started assigning us to our tables. kinda felt like being called out to join the battlefield in war movies where the new recruit doesn't know wtf he needs to do but goes anyway.

so as a first timer i got grouped up with this short hairy ah beng dude and a china fag, both 3rd timers. lil beng was quite friendly and helpful in showing me the ropes while china fag was basically.. a china fag.

we wandered around trying to find the ballroom for awhile. then we got in and wandered around trying to find our tables. met the drinks server for my table, who was hot and cute and asked me to help her serve tea. she was one of the few english speaking girls around but i accidently spoke to her in chinese later on, but that's another story.

anyway, china fag was looking around trying to find one of our tables which had been missing its number plate. apparently he hadn't already figured out how to read the map.

first course to serve was an empty plate.. apparently some lame joke by the organisers. when the diners were asked to open the plate covers the emcees belted out their rehearsed "oh noezzzzz! what is going on here????"

rest of the night was pretty much see and do. watched where people go to take food to serve, watched how people collect plates and watched how people steal leftover food. there was this funny dude who feasted frequently at the dirty dishes drop-off point, eating more than most of the dinner guests. the mutton rendang was good. taking drinks for yourself was easy too. ah beng taught me how lin zui, going to the bar to ask for drinks to serve diners and making a detour to the kitchens to consume.

halfway through i got reassigned to another table where this china noob who is supposed to have experience couldn't handle 2 tables and complained to the manager that he was in desperate need for help. he was too freaking noob to carry 2 dishes from the kitchen on his own so he asked me, a first timer, to help him carry them BOTH. yea doesn't make sense. i ended up doing serving for groups of tables at opposite ends of the room.

i wasn't prejudiced against them before i started work, despite kah ming's constant warnings about how annoying workers and poor communicators they were but by the time the event was over, i realised they really... suck. it's not about where they're from(in a way we're both from china anyway), or how they speak(ok maybe abit), but their attitude and thinking capabilities.

for example, china fag asked me to get a ladder from the kitchen. it took him 4 repeats for me to understand that he wanted me to get something and another 5 to understand that he wanted a ladle, not a ladder. and he still complains that me and beng are not helping him when we are constantly bringing stuff to and fro from the kitchen while he stays there to clear plates from the table. it was a good thing that hairy beng shared my opinion. had to speak chinese to my fellow workers the whole night, which was tough.

did overtime for that extra bit of cash. basically its 3 hours more of sai kang, will not do it again.

work is interesting.

physical exhaustion

i'm very tired, i need a break.

nope, no break.

the search

after hours of searching through my papers, i finally found my entry proof for chinese exam. yay, but it looks like i'll have to set aside a Week sometime soon to sort out my stuff.

had my first proper meal in 3 days. meanwhile i've been surviving on of cookies, biscuits, peanuts and a bad meal at the food court.

oh no

forgot to do a bunch of stuff today so...

oh no.

endless road

Some pics from Tommy Emmanuel's masterclass, which was some real inspiring stuff.

Camera was tricky to use to the pictures came out all bright and blurry.


Man with the Green Thumb
















Damn camera. Looks kinda psychedelic.
















Tuning his guitar halfway through a song.


The Master surrounded by noobs.
















Signature.
















Went home and out again to meet bran and glenn for his concert.
Got too engrossed to take any pictures. From the moment he walked onto stage it was just pure magic for 3 hours. Great showmanship and flawless execution. Played lots his great songs like tall fiddler, drivetime, lewis and clark, a beatles medley, and some great stuff from his heroes travis and chet atkins. Sitting through Mombasa(with percussive drumming on his guitar) and Initiation LIVE was a blast too. He gave another 2 songs for encore after the audience gave him a standing ovation and refused to stop clapping. Can't wait to see him again if he comes around next year.

After having our minds blown out we went to eat carls jr, which was still open past 11. FATS.

Virtuoso

going to tommy emmanuel's masterclasses and concert tomorrow/today, can't wait.

I'll be learning and watching from one of the greatest guitarists in the world and trying to get my guitar and a pick signed.

BUT first, gotta prepare for OP tomorrow/today.

iPromote

not only did i get promoted, but i topped my form class in h1 physics with a D (there are only 5 ppl taking physics) and received an improvement award for my spectacular 114% increase in score for maths, improving my grade from a lousy U to a..... better U.

i was totally expecting to have status:retained at first but literature marking leniency and desperate last day physics cramming saved me from the anticipating jaws of RETAIN.

a friend once told me, i'm the kind of person who will always come out ok in the end even when everything is wtffffffff screwed up along the way. i haven't been able to prove him wrong, but i really really wonder how much this will last. shitty sloppy last second preperations aren't gonna cut it for block tests, prelims and A levels next year.

getting promoted is still only the bare minimum. ten years ago i was still like whining over how i got 99 and a HALF for my subjects and what a PITY. WHAT A PITY. now i'm happy to just get above 45 marks, even though its not even considered a proper pass. getting an E shows that you're competent less than half of the syllabus, which is really kinda pathetic. how freaking pathetic i've become.

but we can't really be blamed for this. our education system is obviously designed to demoralise. in lower primary i breezed through tests and expected to score at least 97% most of the time. i even brainstormed for ways to get more than full marks. then in upper primary the notch is upped, full marks are no longer realistic and you can just hope for band 1 grades.

but secondary school is really the turning point. suddenly getting 80-90% and above is deemed impossible and you're classified as a freak with no life if you get such scores. standards are lowered. few expect you to do better than 75 and it becomes the new 100%. anything above that is merely useless bonus. then in upper sec, the concept of RETAIN is first introduced and we start celebrating so long as we are passing. then the O levels results are out and you've jumped up to grades that you haven't been seeing for some time. oh wowweee hurrah we weren't that stupid afterall!

enter JC and everything falls apart for me again. getting a subpass gives some sort of relief. a pass deserves a little celebration. euphoria and disbelief from getting a C.

how pathetic. but a promotion is a promotion, just glad to have pulled through.

ABU MUSA

This came in my inbox today:

I presumed that all is well with you and your family. Please let this do not be a surprise proposal to you because i got your contact information from the international directory in few weeks ago before i decided to contact you on this magintude and lucrative transaction for our future survival in life. Moreover, i have laid all the solemn trust in you before i decided to disclose this successful & confidential transaction to you.

I AM MR. ABU MUSA, THE CHIEF AUDITOR INCHARGE OF FOREIGN REMITTANCE UNIT of our bank and i have had the intent to contact you over this financial transaction worth the sum of NINTEEN MILLION, THREE HUNDRED THOUSAND UNITED STATES DOLLARS ($19,300,000.00 ) for our success.This is an abandoned sum that belongs to one of our bank foreign customers who died along with his entire family through plane crash disaster since few years ago. Meanwhile i was very fortune to came across the deceased file when i was arranging theold and abandoned customers files in other to sign and submit to the entire bank management for an official re-documentation and audit of the year against 2007.

Be informed clearly that it was stated in our banking rules and regulations which was signed lawfully that if such fund remains unclaimed till the period of 5 years started from the date when the beneficiary died, the money will be transferred into the treasury as an unclaimed fund. As an honour and advantage bestowed to our foreign customers base on the rules guideing our bank, it was stated obviously that if you are not a Burkina Faso citizen, you have the absolute authority to claim the fund hence you are a foreigner despite your differences from the country of origin of the deceased. So the request of you as a foreigner is necessary to apply for the claim and transfer of the fund smoothly into your reliable bank account as the NEXT OF KIN OR EXTENDED RELATIVE to the deceased.

On the transfer of this fund into your account, { 39% } being ( US$7,527,000.00) will be your share in respect of the account provision and your assistance rendered during the transfer of the fund into your bank account,{ 52% } being (US$10,036,000.00) will be my share being the codinator of the transaction while the rest { 9% } being (US$1,737,000.00) will be shared to the respectable Organisations Centers such as Charity Organisation, Motherless Babies homes, and helpless disabled people in the World.

If you are really sure of your trustworthy, accountability and confidentiality on his transaction, contact me and agree that you will not change your mind to cheat or disappoint me when the fund have getting into your account. Besides you should not entertain any fear because i am sure of the success as an insider in the bank ok.

Please reply with

the assurance, include your private telephone and fax numbers necessary for facilitate an easy communication in this transaction. As soon as you reply , call me through my private telephone number on(0022670340481) so that i will let you know the next step to follow in order to finalize this transaction immediately.

I expect your urgent communication.

Yours sincerely,

MR.ABU MUSAO

ZZZZZZZOOOOOMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I'M GONNA BE INSANELY RICH!1!!11!!!1!!1!!!!1!!! I'M RUNNING AWAY WITH THE CASH AS SOON AS IT GETS INTO MY BANK ACCOUNT SCR3W ABU AND HIS CHARITY ORGANISATIONS OH YEA AREN'T I SMARTTTT!!!!!!!1!!11!!!!!!!!!!

But honestly, i really wonder what kind of dumbasses fall for this shit. EVEN if they're ignorant enough to not read the papers once in awhile or listen to the news, what kind of people really believesthat some totally random dude is just going to send by EMAIL matters regarding millions of dollars and say something like "okay i totally don't know you but i'll let you have MILLIONZZZ OF DOLLARZZZ FAST EZ CASH if you help me k thnx" It must be really embarrassing to go to the police too, saying you gave away your money to some African dude online and it didn't come back.

maybe they just wanted to help the "respectable Organisations Centers such as Charity Organisation, Motherless Babies homes, and helpless disabled people in the World."

maybe they feel honoured to be recognised by some nigerian prince and happily oblige to do his bidding.

maybe they were convinced by the professionalism shown in the writing of the email. (there's the word confidential mentioned a number of times so woaahhh.. it's confidential.)

maybe money is the root of all stupidity, even if it ironically ends up with more money lost.

whatever it is, dear Mr. Abu was right about one thing. It's for "future survival in life" At least the dumb prick will learn to stop wasting money on buying magic stones from strangers and Abu Musa gets 3 meals a day.

lasagna

$20 worth of ingredients, 2 hours to make and it'll be finished in 3 meals. i don't think it's worth making anymore even though it tastes teh pwnage.

so the promos are over. screwed up lit, screwed up econs screwed up maths.

psychedelic physics:
woke up on fri for the last h1 paper feeling totally psychedelic due to extreme exhasution. woke up at what i thought was 3.30am, realised it was 4am, and suddenly it was 5.30am and i was lying on the floor in my room. then one moment i was in my bed, then i was on the sofa, then i was in the kitchen AND the living room at the same time, with waffles and bread all over the floor of the living room/kitchen with and the walls were all purplish greenish brownish. but they weren't on the floor. the floor was on them. managed to stumble out of the house, stumble through psychedelic physics, stumble back home and stumbled back into my bed. my mind was really screwed up that morning, maybe the indonesians are burning massive crops of pot or something.

canoeing trainings resume, but now at jurong lake, which is at the end of the country. the water there is said to be full of bacteria and stuff due to a number of canals dumping into it and water being retained there for sometime before flowing out so we had to wash ourselves like immediately after coming out from the water to acoid infections and nasty rashes. disgusting shit, hope we move to seletar reservoir asap.

stuff to be done after promos:
-sort out my pile of notes on what used to be a table.
-finish watching my 5gbs of guitar instructional videos and powerlevel my guitar 5kiLx0oRZZZ.
-get a job.
-play WoW.
-play more WoW of there's nothing else to do.
-attempt studies for next year, IF i get promoted.

And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.
-Pink Floyd was kinda psychedelic too.

ceh?

going bran's house to study overnight. it's my last chance to fully catch up and IF i succeed i will emerge tomorrow as a slightly more academically-able person.

IF not, i don't have to buy notes for next year.

promote or die

had canoeing team bbq on friday at shaun's, had a great time though didn't get to eat much. as with all poolside bbqs, i expected to end up in the pool sooner or later so i went with the flow of things, helping others get in there first and then changing to my shorts while they were still wading around the pool, then went to play pool (the ball game)with the still dry people. one by one my opponents got dragged into the shadowy depths until finally vendetta was done on me.
there was a cool video presentation and award giving ceremony for the seniors, really nice and touching. they've sacrificed alot as the pioneer batch, so we've gotta work harder for next year.

i've ran out of curry AND brownies. not enough ingredients to cook anything so its gonna be instant noodles fortnight from tomorrow. yucks.

i'm gonna start studying NOT to get promoted, but to avoid getting retained, and there's a big difference in that.

mystery

Oh yea tommy emmanuel's gonna rock.

Rice and Curry

as the title already suggests, i am making rice and curry, which should last me for 3 dinners.

"ineffeciency"

okay, some pw stuff to do, open the wr file.
hmmm why's this section so unfamiliar.
what's this doing here. scroll scroll.
ctrl-c, ctrl-v, backspace, space, space, backspace.
oh wait better check the content page.
hmmm, seems to be correct.
now let's see i have to do.
no i don't really get what i'm supposed to do.
isn't everything here already.
ok i'll do some edits. grab some relevant book.
hmm contradictions between book and data.
highlight, backspace. taptaptap.
taptaptap.
oh wait. then these parts will be wrong too.
teachers won't look up research materials anyway.
ctrl-z, ctrl-z, ctrl-z.
ok i'll add more info.
taptaptaptap.
no that doesn't sound right.
highlight, backspace.
maybe add some better words here and there.
tools>thesaurus.
click, click.
no, doesn't fit in.
ctrl-z. ctrl-y? no, still ctrl-z.
oh a random flash of inspiration!
taptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptap flurry.
eh.
no that's only half correct.
backspace, backspace.
need to substantiate.
flip, flip.
book doesn't say anything.
maybe i'll just rephrase.
how do i rephrase this.
think, think.
aha. reverse the sentence.
highlight, backspace.
oops. ctrl-z.
highligt, backspace.
no doesn't look right.
ctrl-z.
the paragraph will be better without it.
oh nevermind i'll move on to another section.
rinse. repeat.

turned out like a freeverse poem.

they always say,

monday's got the blues.

but tuesdays are just as bad.

It's come to this

school starts tomorrow, promos not far ahead, so it's

STUDY OR DIEEEEEEE.

decisions, decisions.

gonna have to sleep over it.

bird songs

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.



so i'm free again. or AM I?

oh sht

realised that i didn't watch any steve irwin shows this year. can still remember the good ol days of yesteryear, when watching him get bitten by snakes was more important then brushing up my A maths.

apparently some people who've probably never watched the shows or even know anything else about him besides his name and that he's got something to do crocodiles find this incident like all teh rage and put up these really witty remarks like "he KILLED crocs but stingray kills him LAWL!" or "now no more crocodiles will have to DIE!" i can only respect their bravery in proudly displaying their stupidity and ignorance.

only 2 more days. to what?

sept yay.

holidays are here, which means remedial lessons and studying.

Time

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.

So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.

Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over,
Thought I'd something more to say.

-Pink Floyd made it more than music.

If...

Moral education in schools tell teach us to "live like there's no tomorrow."

o rly?

then why study for the future.
gritted and grinded my teeth through 3 maths assignments this week, a record for the year, perhaps even the past 2 years.

them

what kind of people still believe that microsoft can't afford to run messenger and forwarding an email will save their account.

what kind of people still believe that stuff is gonna pop up on your screen when you send a joke to 10 people.

what kind of people still believe that a kid who has cancer needs you to forward an email which will raise 3 cents for him.

just stick to donating on flag days.

finally went to order the pf pulse dvd. can't wait.

excellence quest

came home all ready to embark on the road to promotion. but then came pw. stupid pw.

nub

what i remembered from the walk home:
-wild rabbits
-barking dog
-two short dogs
-dead frog
-emo runaway boy sitting by the road
-guy carrying a black cat

i think the wild rabbits were the coolest.

weird day, had lots of trouble differentiating dream from reality after my afternoon nap. It's like some stuff that happened in the afternoon might as well be real but they were actually part of some dream and vice versa.

H1 physics test tomorrow, i am counting on the tried and tested motto: "With confidence, Half the battle is won."
You don't need to study to pass, you just need confidence.

But i did study anyway. a bit.

an academically unsuccessful day.

KP

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MAI KP LA. some ppl shd just stfu no one cares about how pissed you are anymore after the 120837604572th time you've shouted "i'm fucking pissed"

and if you keep kp-ing repeatedly about how you dislike someone and how you want to whack him then FUCK. WHACK HIM and STFU.

in conclusion, mai kp la.

yea canoeing training was ok today, i think i've gotten some form back on the K1. but seems like alot of ppl nt on form today. must work harder. H1 physics test nxt week, should start studying tomorrow. and i'll be attempting to do my FIRST maths tutorial.

nuh.

boring day at school.

great night at rapture.

then my bike gets stolen. "brothers in arms" by Dire Straits started playing on my mp3 player at that point. It was extremely appropriate.

i had to walk home.

here

here i am trying to do pw. it's kinda hard trying to come up with a section of my grp's written report with almost zero relevant reference materials.

random flashes of inspiration for the win. and kopi peng tomorrow morning.

aha

aha all england supporters got owned. pfft nubcakes.

die die must die.

still haven't started studying, despite all the pressure surrounding me. i guess i enjoy the thrill of last minute crisis control. yes i know eventually i'll look back and say oh how i wish i had studied back then blablabla.

err so i'm like screwed.

family came back from dubai, house is flooded with ppl now, kinda annoyed to find out that my siblings are still as annoying as ever and have not matured in the past six months.

syf rehearsal today, a whole afternoon that could be spent studying totally wasted. canoeing competition in two weeks and there's barely enough time to train and i don't think any of us are up to standard yet. but as coach said, we're going there for participation =/

it ends tomorrow

yes, the life ends today. its been a fun 6 months. gotta readapt and stuff now, its back to family living. for now.

A week

only one week left to study for common tests, fold the clothes, clean the rooms, put away the dishes, throw away the trash, cut my hair, change my life, settle my finances, balance perfectly on K1 kayak, wash the car, save the world etc.

3 weeks ago i would have had 4 weeks to do all these. i'll pull through, but barely.

saturday was sports EXTREME. met up with the EXTREME all-stars soccer team at the mrt station. turns out there were only four of us. In the end we had to pull in two sec 3 kids to play for us. first match was ok, managed to hold a draw against ronald's cj team. 2nd match was a disaster, lost because of a penalty to a team of sec 1s. things sort of went downhill after that. so much for extreme. cut the sole of my foot while playing soccer at daniel's house after that. can barely walk now cos its swelling and stuff.

didn't feel like waking up so i kept hitting the snooze button like there was no today. in the end woke up about 2 and a half hours later. went down to kallang for canoeing, super funny today. only capped twice in 10km so i've somewhat improved i think. studied awhile after that, finally pinned down that maths question i've been doing for 2 weeks. uh.

big pudgy pillsbury boy

bought pancake mix today/yesterday/whatever. gonna make pancakes when i wake up. can't wait.

elmo

holidays are entering 3rd week... i have been academically unsuccessful in the first two weeks, covering only arithmetic progression for maths so far. so many things are at stake for common tests, but i'm still not doing anything. reminds me of the weeks before o levels, but i doubt the results will be the same this time.

the usual ppl came over to watch opening match of world cup at my place wowee. germany kinda owned costa rica. wasted alot of time in the morning after we woke up, went to eat prata and managed to prevent the prata uncles from pulling a fast one on us. but the egg prata was good. after that we went to find a clinic where i could self-diagnose myself and get an m.c. for missing syf parade but all were closed. apparently some people didn't feel like earning themselves a quick buck today. struck by a brainwave when i reached home. it occured to me that i could make sandwiches to feed myself. so i made sandwiches and they tasted good.

went out for lunch with my aunt and uncle to some jap buffet. really thanked them cos i haven't eaten food this decent in a long time. then when i got home i realised my aunt forgot to give me my birthday angbao. i should already be grateful for the lunch but i was still kinda disappointed and i can't ask for it out of courtesy. say i'm materialistic and stuff but thats the sad reality of this world, everybody wants money. and food too.

have to wake up early tomorrow to try and get an m.c. for saturday. and there's pw meeting. everyone knows how pw sucks. and there's canoeing training too. so there's no time to study tomorrow and i'm one step closer to being retained.





















zomg somebody save that kid! i told you elmo is ped.

oh. k.

had a rather fun weekend. but this is not supposed to be happening. jc sch holidays are meant for STUDYING.

watched the da vinci code. thought it was just supersuper mediocre.

saturday had some kind of gathering at my house. after much searching, couldn't find a soldering iron so i had to ask mella to buy one. plunged into the unknown trying to solder some wires in my guitar. miraculously, no one was seriously injured. liquid metal is fun to play with. after that was on to guitar battles, being the god of war, rasa sayang western food, burnout revenge, watching youtube videos on social improvement in japan, ordering macdonalds at 3am, derric being a digimon master and epic showdown with eugene, and then dropping off to sleep.

sunday was quite an epic of time wasted. slacked around for damn long at my house. i stabbed my finger with a knife while cutting brownies. got stuneed for 2 seconds before deciding that i should take the knife out of my finger. quite disgusting watching some white flesh spill out and the blood dripping non stop. later realised i forgot to wash the knife and had continued cutting. oh well.

finally move out in the late afternoon. followed derric home with joel to play with his new little bitch before going out to meet the rest to buy clothes. in the end no one bought anything at all. uh.

my house is not a hotel

after months of living on junkfood, late nights early mornings, my body decided to say wtf stop it okay so i got sick.

could finally put those medical supplies i got from the polyclinic a few weeks ago to good use. took ONE paracetamol tablet (panadol thingy). I'm well on my way to finishing up all that medicine, only have 9 more paracetamol tabs, 10 sorethroat lozenges, a bottle of cough syrup and 10 chlorpheniramine tabs (for fever i think) to go.

half a week of hold is gone, only studied fifteen minutes so far =/ die.

watched x men 3: THE LAST STAND. not a very nice movie. no character development, minimal action. just some plot about a cure for mutants and one unlucky dude who died while having mutant sex.

The new mutants were just noobs, like the slut who could move super fast but still gets owned by "bao feng nu shen"-- as named in the subtitles -- who doesn't move super fast or have super fast reflexes. just doesn't make sense. and there's also that bird boy who is able to fly with his bird wings around the city topless and wow-ing kids everywhere. biggest disappointments were wolverine who has not adopted the much cooler yellowblueblack original costume and gambit still missing, apparently still hiding in some gambling den playing daidee.

oh noezzzzzzzzzz

just starting on my lit essays. have 2 to do.

i predict a late night.

because it would be way too suspicious if i pon tmr.

zz

finally finished my gp essay. just wrote shit all the way and i was walking to the kitchen to eat oreos like every five minutes and watching tv every 15 minutes. oh what a conducive environment to work in.

maths lecture first thing tomorrow. should be able to take a good nap.

Fishy

i made the best baked fish ever today. too bad i can't remember how i did it.

was supposed to go canoeing today but it was cancelled, so i stayed at home and TRIED to study. at least i tried.

i think my maths is improving. managed to get 8/25 marks (more than the previous "3") without using a single formula and the fact that i had spent the only study time i had in the polyclinic the day before studying partial fractions, which i later found out was not tested. So yayzz. my physics should be improving too, looking to pass the passing grade (25%) because i know that Ux=ucos30.

still have a GP essay and 1 week late chinese compo to do. tomorrow is monday again. best day to pon sch. but better not. uh.

the last live

it was really screwed up. button number 2 wouldn't work on me. other stuff also screwed up.

so we got 4th. ppl were saying GJ anyway blablabla not the results that count blablabla 4th is good blablabla. but its really not.

felt sorry for the many habannah fans who we've seriously disappointed.. we could've owned some shit that night... but we didn't. its not really abt winning and stuff.. we just didn't play as well as we were supposed to and most of it was out of our control.

this is probably the end for us. we'll be going our seperate ways. bran will be going to learn some larry graham stuff on his own, kenneth will be returning to his band, wong will be setting up his very own percussion band shit, joel will be going back to acoustic guitar, samuel will go under for a few months and emerge as satriani and own the shit out of everyone, i'll be moving on to my side project.

well, its been fun, thnx everyone, goodnight.

anyday

so tired. so much stuff to do. but i will survive.

I WON'T DIE!

habannah

i tried really hard not to sleep during the pw talk today and miss k sort of noticed my efforts and now she's gonna call my parents. oh wells.

was a nerve wracking day waiting for the release of the ICtalent audition results. couldn't really focus on lessons when i knew that every sms might be THE message.

the school day went by and no results. uh.

there was some useless talk about economic competitiveness after school. probably the most boring talk ever. i went in full of energy but near the end i fainted out of boredom. seriously, why does the sch organise such stuff when no one really cares.

news came out that the results were out when i reached home and so i went to check bran's email. and there it was:

Dear Habannah,
Congratulations! You have made it into the finals! The judges were impressed but have also given the following feedback:
a. Guitarists need to work on it a bit more.
b. Mixing effects need improvement.
c. Volume control is good.

A. and B. were probably my fault due to my pedal screwup and the shitty amps which couldn't handle the metal gain.

other than that habannah is good to go. yay.

and i'm going to slp early today. screw hmwk and stuff.

WWMTD

they should start producing WWMTD wristbands. whenever a person feels angry, he/she would just have to look at his wristband and think, WWMTD? and everything would be okay.
if everybody wore one of those, there would be no fighting, no wars and no hatred. everyone would be happy and the world filled with peace love and joy. but of course, working society will cease to function but thats just ONE downside.

labour dayyy. went to play soccer with the cat high ppl today. relieving memories of the good old days when we didn't have to give a shit about anything. then went to play LAN. then walked around town ahwhile. came home ard 9pm.

now here i am, with my PI and journal still untouched. i predict a late night.

i can't pretend i don't care anymore.

"miraculously, they escaped with minor injuries"

so we had ICtalent auditions on saturday. we were kind of intimidated at first by a few other bands who displayed some skillzzzz during soundcheck. especially the TPJC guitarist who kept showing off his l33t shredding.

there were 6 bands before us. i only found two of them that really stood out, the funky cool NJC band with their uber style guitarist and MELLA and friends.

everything went wrong for me when it was our turn. strap pin was broken so i had to sit down and play AND i pressed the wrong button on samuel's multieffects, shutting off my sound for TEN SECONDS. still got standing ovation from the crowd but it was DAMN embarrassing. wanted to stay to watch the rest but had to rush off for canoeing training. later found out that the tpjc band played ocean avenue and sucked. BEH? what a letdown.

canoeing rankings were today. it consisted of just ONE race, which was really long. got 3rd out of 18 so i guess i did well enough but still have to train more if i want to go compete.

okay la i suck la.

anthony by day

wow such a dude existed in singapore. RAYMOND ANTONY. He's the guitarist of some really old 60s band in singapore that played blues and rock. He totally pwned at the guitar and played it Hendrix style with the strings upside down. Now few people remember him. i wonder if i can track him down and interview him for PW. But i don't even know if he's dead or alive.

and even if he's alive, he might as well be dead.

but the rock will live on.

I don't need your civil war

This weekend was supposed to be one of those sort-out-my-life weekends. but nothing really happened. but i did make brownies.



yummy.





i think i stuffed enough chocolate into my brownies to kill all the dogs in the world (chocolates kill dogs but i like them both). by the time i had finished cutting them up to put in the fridge i had eaten about 1/6 of the whole tray, which was quite alot. and that was my lunch.

spent the whole afternoon trying to power level my guitar skills to paul gilbert level. didn't work out. soon i got hungry and went to find something to eat and ended up stir frying some chicken with random stuff i found in the kitchen and eating it with rice. i'm calling it the chicken salsa thingy and it tasted pretty decent.










haha then soon after that my neighbour came over to give me BROWNIES. they tasted slighty better then mine and the texture was much better too. but what can i expect? first time brownie baking noob vs experienced cook and demonstrator at sajc's culinary club.

everyones talking about ms k now after the events of last week. she walked out of our pw class so our class went to "apologise" at the staff room.

so ms k was going:
blablablablairresponsibleblablablastupidblablawhiningblablaonusblabla
growupblanorepspectblablablarealityofyourexistenceblabla

yj and shaun tried to put up a valiant fight for our freedom and rights but ms k kinda owned them. but you have to respect their tenacity on that one.

i don't really care about it at all. in my opinion tolerance is the way to go here. 2 years later it'll be over and GG no RM. zomg still haven't started on my homework. i hope i don't fall asleep in classes tomorrow. BIG K is watching me.

Sometimes

Sometimes, when i have too many things to do, i tend to not do anything.

Sometimes, when i have too many places to go to, i tend to not go anywhere.

Sometimes, when i have too many choices to make, i tend to not choose anything.

this doesn't apply to money though.

i waited really long for the bus home today. but this time, i did not mind. i did not mind at all.

and i'm still awake.

this week i shall be baking brownies.

Burn It Down

omg i need more sleep.

sleeping late is like a vicious cycle... and mine has been since last year.

was damn tired by the end of sch today.. had the perfect plan to pon syf training and go home to sleep but NOOOO the sch has to block off all exits so that JC1s can't escape sch cos they have to watch some concert. i wouldn't have minded going to concert cos i heard it was quite cool with the percussion and latin tunes and stuff but syf was just a waste of time again. everyone was just slacking around the whole time.

it was like.. 10 mins of footdrill, 10 mins break which extends to 20 mins, rinse and repeat. and a whole lot of stoning at the gallery.

when home right after in ended. overslept on the bus. and had to walk back 2 stops. reached home half awake. then there were clothes to wash so i couldn't sleep yet. by the time all that was done it was 9pm. too early to sleep and too late to take a nap so i tried studying some econs. then realised that there was still PI editing to do. i had planned to sleep at 10pm. what time is it now?

i swear i'm gonna sleep at 10pm on friday. it will be the earliest time i've ever gone to bed in 2 years.

*eh?

2 and a 1/2 hours of preperation, 4 rebakes, intense oven microing... to create:

TEH PWNAGE LASAGNA.
It like... totally owns every other nooblet lasagna out there.
Marvel at its greatness and the cheese. the meat sauce too. and those perfectly lined pasta layers.

and so.

and so my mum has left after her short hectic stay. and i'm without parental control again. my so-called freedom.

the life will go on as usual. OR WILL IT?

what IS usual.

OH NOEZZZ.

now i've come to realise i can never go back to the old.

oh wells.

and my plans to make teh pwnage lasagna tomorrow have been DASHED.

pretty in pink.

The flowers usually bloom at this time of the year. then they drop and die, leaving their carcasses all over the sidewalk. what a sad end. these ones were pink.

My THOTS.

some random thoughts that have no link to each other:

hey you.
the worms ate right through his brain.
you leeched my money in the stupidest way.
5 years of sunday nights.
two kings.
why can't they all just get along.
is it worth it.
you're just like them.
i'll just keep on running.
a moth flew onto tom and died.
you were only waiting for this moment to arrive.
so that others could go on.
when hate was just a legend.
i bought larger sized jc uniforms so that i can wear for 3 years.
when they realise.
its just not the same anymore.
i got 111.

i should've taken the other train.
a spade is a spade.

Ah.

i have never felt this screwed in a long, long time.

i was like zomgfshit and it was like really Totally my fault. but in the end it was settled and its so damn complicated that i won't bother writing it here. i will try to be more responsible from now on.

and i'm gonna chiong 1984 tonight. read it before so i should be able get through it in 1-2 hours. still got lots of homework to do too. ah.

TeH Cleanup part 2

it took me a few hours but i guess it was worth it.

BEFORE:






















AFTER:
























my gosu cleaning skillz.

so i came back late after life con and dinner with the old A4 ppl... my clothes were washed, the house was even cleaner, and the lights were on waiting for me. yes its good to have parents. cherish while you can.

woke up totally exhausted today. like REALLY tired. slept at the bus stop while waiting for my friends, then slept thru econs lecture again. didn't sleep through chinese class because i was too busy trying to do the chinese worksheet. i like, couldn't read 50% of the words. in the end i had to copy from someone else =/. then the reallllllyyy nice chinese teacher confronted me about my compo which i still have not passed up after 4 days and told me reallllllly nicely that i could hand it up next week. and so i will since she was so nice about it.

after that was break, then went library to get articles for gp, then went for gp to stone and fill up some reflection wksht on my article. after that was PW, where i found out that i was screwed for PW since i still have no idea on what i'm going to do.

then had to go for the useless syf training. after a failed attempt to pon, we all got stuck there to learn drills for the whole afternoon. i won't elaborate on what happened but i think everyone should Really relax abit la... sometimes theres really no benefit in getting worked up and pissed off and then ruining your mood over some stuff.

then went to do abit of extra physical training with some canoeing ppl found out that we missed the super happy meals today. sian. so we played around in the fitness corner and then went to run awhile. then i went home and visited my condo's gym for the first time. it sucks. but its enough to do all the basic exercises. did 4 sets and i feel fitter now. just hope i'll be able to make it into the competition.

while doing my situps i remembered some random thing that someone had said to someone else a few years ago which i did not understand at that time. now i understand. and it really amused me.

i guess i can't expect everyone to0 be as nice as me.

The Cleanup

Going on a cleaning marathon. there will be pics and stuff about it because this is gonna be so revolutionary. tonight is the night.

2eh?

NEXT.

i finally did it. but it just got more complicated.

oh well at least i found out that i actually still have ONE MORE chocolate biscuit when i got home. no one will ever understand the significance of this discovery.

but i still have an entire chapter of physics tutorials to do and a pile of clothes to hang up. and i only have 2 days left to do everything i was supposed to do. or else.

5eh?

i woke up early today to hunt for the lizard. after some frantic struggles and an epic showdown behind the shelf i finally caught it. put it in a plastic bag and threw it down the chute. felt kinda bad but it had to be done.

went for 06a04's VERY FIRST class outing today. we just ate lunch at pizza hut. then after that went to watch MJC vs SAJC soccer match. SA won 3-2! wheee. was kinda unexpected since MJC is pro and all that shit... but we won.

after that went for dinner with the brotherhood. spent alot of time talking cock at the foodcourt and reached home at 9. now i'm tired. zzzzzzzz.

1eh?

woke up this morning. took up my sa uniform. there was lizard shit on it. then i found out there was lizard shit all over the bed.(not the one i sleep on) and lizard shit on Tom. again.

feeling disorientated and pissed, i decided to hunt it down. i found it lurking behind the curtains. it was like taunting and mocking me with its stupid clicky lizard noises so i chased it around the walls for awhile with a plastic container until it ran behind the aircon. dammit. i really regret letting it live the last time i caught it. THE NEXT TIME THERE SHALL BE NO MERCY.

well then i went on to iron my pants. my new iron is great. Its a nifty Steam Jet "Grace" by Wing Shing International (BVI). though not as powerful and having a weaker steam spray functionailty than the old Kenwood ST382, its ultra lightness and small size makes it more portable, so its easier to take it in and out of the cupboard and carrying it around the house if i ever want to do my ironing somewhere else, like the kitchen. its short curved "V" design also allows for greater control and speed, allowing it to make tight difficult maneuvers around the intricate cuttings of the sa uniform. yea and so that's... how great my new iron is.

i forgot to close the windows when i went out. and it rained. the floor was seriously screwed up when i came home. i hope the wood doesn't rot or something.

didn't go for canoeing training today, mainly because of the stupid syf briefing. the teacher was just going BSBSBSBSBSBS and repeating stupid stuff over and over again. then by the time it ended it was ard 4.30 and i was feeling kinda tired so i decided to go home instead.

reached home and decided to take an evening nap today. somehow it reminded me of how i used to tell my mum that i was studying for prelims in the room while i was actually sleeping on my comfy green sofa.

my life is still quite screwed up now i think. i discovered that i don't really have THAT much free time anymore. there are lots of stuff that i've wanted to do but haven't, such as rearranging the furniture, making more fried chicken, cooking the perfect pasta, going on another overnight cycling trip, blahblahblahblah. i've got even more crazy stuff that i want do but i haven't even managed to clean up my room.

but I Will Survive. dum dum dum dum-dum dum-dum dum-dum-dum-dum.

3eh?

my iron died this morning. now i'm left hungry, tired, bored, AND without nicely ironed shirts.

i will mourn its absence greatly. and i'll have to borrow one from one of my neighbours.

8eh?

had that dream again. its like one of those end of the world kind of dreams and its really cool but kinda scary.

i screwed up my plans and now i'm stuck at home alone tonight. its really not very nice.

4eh?

i really wonder where this is all going.

on the other hand, my washing machine is fixed and that totally roxxors.

9eh?

first the hairdryer, then oven, then the washing machine, and now the TV.
screwed up shit.

woke up to the sound of rain at 3.30am. had to run around the house closing the windows. i didn't bother wiping the floors.

sch was slack as usual. i wonder when i'm going to start studying stuff.

"get a job"
"why?"
they call that philosophy.

0eh?

when the phone rings at 6.30am, its usually my neighbour calling me to tell me i overslept.

it rang today, on the first day of the new term. the first thing i said to her was "oh shit, my alarm clock failed" then she told me i had to go to school myself because she had to rush her son to somewhere.

the only thing i could think of was:
shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate shiti'mgonnabelate
and miss k will scold me.

i ran down to the main road. it's almost impossible to flag a cab at this time but i had to try. well i didn't manage to hail a taxi. the taxi came to me. it seems that some lady had decided to be dropped off by taxi at the exact spot by the roadside where i was standing. so i took it. lucky shit and i got to sch on time. but at a price of $8.40.

somehow miss k found out about this and made a remark about it. oh wellzzz.

7eh?

i managed to wake up at a decent time today and found something to do.

yayz.

the lift is finally fixed.

double yayz.

T for Tuan

came home feeling bummed out today. i couldn't even read the time on the clock.

anyways, it was the final mini a4 outing today.. met weili and elsie after canoeing training.. then waited about 1 hour for joel to come.
went to watch V for Vendetta. after watching wolfcreek and FD3, this show was really awesome. yea. remember, remember, the fifth of november.
went to eat at BK, met joshua, then we proceeded on to alicia's house. by the time we got to yishun she was still at bukit timah so we went to ntuc to stock up on supplies. i bought my baked not fried biscuits and marshmallows to bring home while the rest stocked up on mild alcoholic drinks and chips.

finally alicia came and so we went to her house. watched movies until we all fell asleep in the living room. i think we stopped at white chicks.
woke up late morning feeling like shit. my neck was screwed up from sleeping on the floor. we watched more tv then went off. called up my uncle to see if i could help him with his house moving and get dinner at the same time but it seems that they were already done so i went home on the most surreal bus ride ever.

somehow i made it back home. checked my temperature. yup i finally had a fever. after months of irregular sleep cycles and veggie-less diets, it has finally come. instead of sleeping, i spent the afternoon watching family guy. by 7pm i realised that i was miraculously cured of my illness. oh the wonderous powers of comedy and ice cream.

so here i am, still alive and kicking. the holidays have really been kinda fun but sadly its probably gonna be the last fun one for the next 1 year 8 months.

this year has been really fun so far.. goodbye to the friends who have left sajc for greener pastures, you will be sorely missed.

monday should be a good day. but what am i gonna do on sunday?

so...

i woke up today, and realised that i had nothing much to do. due to improper planning, there are some one or two days in my hols where i have nowhere to go and nothing to do and being stuck at home alone for a day is already enough to drain me. today is that day.

maybe i'll try studying. NO maybe i won't. but i really should start studying soon. afterall, my main purpose for staying here is to do my A levels. yea right.

due to certain reasons, the repairman came but did not fix our washing machine. thus, the washing machine is not yet fixed.

now?

today was a fun day! og3 outing at sentosa and then dinner wif a04.
but now here i am, alone at home. oh wellzzzzz.

i really wonder where i'm going sometimes. and the heart doesn't do anything else other than pumping blood. its always the brain that does all the emo shit.

oh look what i've done.

feeling more stoned than usual right now. march holidays have been quite eventful so far so.....

saturday:
spent the morning excavating my room. made it look slightly neater but beneath the surface its a different story. sent some of my clothes over to my neighbour's house for washing. FINALLY some fresh clean clothes. yea washing machine is not yet fixed.
went over to brandon's house in evening with a few other peeps. ate pizza then had a random jamming session at the studio. spent the night playing ps2, going to buy chong pang nasi lemak and watching ONG BAK:MUAY THAI WARRIOR. slept at 5.30am

Sunday:
woke up ard 11am. everyone was still sleeping so i went to play ps2. tried unsuccessfully to load the pirated games with his retarded half modified ps2 and in the end i just read the sunday comic strips.
went home to get some new clothes then went to jerick's house for ex 2-4 class gathering. yea lots of ppl were there.. great to see everyone back together again just talking cock and doing retarded stuff. first we went to play tennis/soccer. it was really messy and lots of tennis balls got hit out of the court. then the rain came and ended our fun.
went back to jerick's house to slack awhile more before going down to BBQ. had to use my scout skillXx0rZzZZz to start the fire. due to our noobishness we took almost an hour to get a decent fire going. so we cooked food, had epic marshmallow fights and then went to play soccer again. wheeeeeee.
after that was swimming time. played "bathe the buddha (ronaldgoh)" and then watched buddha jump over the wall. lmao.
then we went to ronald's house and spent most of the night playing ps2 and trying to avoid getting humped by his horny dog. slept around 6am.
woke up around noon, hanged around for awhile and then went to eat and then i went home. louis and junfeng, my 2 scouting juniors came over for jobweek. i made them tidy up my living room. it looks neater than ever before now.

night came and i realised that i had no dinner. by 8.30 i still had no dinner. in my desperation, i decided to cycle to jalan kayu to buy prata. then i remembered that my lift was spoilt and that i would have to lug my bicycle down 10 storeys. so i did. and i managed get my famous thasevi prata. yummy.

and now here i am.

xeh?

i was glad that i woke up today.

NEVER EVER force feed me tau ghey.

geh?

shit

all this would not have happened i had not overslept on the bus.

load

the most boring sunday ever. yea.

woke up late, ate chocolate cake and instant noodles for lunch, practiced blues through most of the afternoon, watched tv, and now here i am. yea.

and the washing machine is not yet fixed.

eob

came to school late today along with the 06a04 ppl who had stayed over at alicia's house. we had woken up before 6 am but then we spent the next hour just sleeping around and stoning before noticing it was kinda late already. but we blamed it on the traffic which miss k seemed to accept.

after chapel we went to check OG and JAE postings. postings were no surprise. og3 and sa arts.

then we realised we were FREE of Miss K, since 06A04 was physically gone now and the she was no longer our CT. so we slacked around the cafe for awhile, took pictures, went for lit class, then left school at 11am for CG lunch. steffi and alicia gave out notes to the whole class. SO SWEET! but i'll never understand why girls like to do this kind of stuff so much.

headed for marche to eat. marche is really a money sucker but it was great with the whole class together and just hanging out. after that we went our seperate ways. went with M2, elvis and pingpong to play bowling over at marina square. and THEN we went our seperate ways.

and so PAE ends. 06A04 and OG3 really rocked and i couldn't have asked for anything better.

weh?

my weekend.

went brandon's house with joshua on friday. we spent the night playing winning eleven and smackdown on ps2. haha the cage matches in smackdown were really retarded. after that we went to eat nasi lemak then slept around 3 plus.

woke up early for canoeing training. took 980 all the way to kallang, but it broke down on the way so we walked the rest of the way. canoeing training was more interesting today.. the coach gave us this adventure race thing to have some fun rather then just canoeing up and down the river. then after the race (which me and jonathan won) i discovered i had a 4 cm cut on my sole. ouch.

tried to do house stuff on sunday morning but woke up to late.. only managed to clean up a bit and collect the clothes. then went out to buy shoes with the 06a04 ppl. we ended up NOT shopping at all. instead we went to watch WOLF CREEK. its like... the most pointless show ever.

summary of the show: 3 people go on as roadtrip. car breaks down. friendly guy helps them out. turns out to be a psycho killer. girls try to escape. die in process. guy escapes. the end.

yea then we went to eat then went to esplanade to slack and talk by the river then we went home. it was fun.

keh?

my aunt just sent me a $1000 cheque. WTF. its time to buy new shoes. i think i'll donate the rest to charity. or not.

qeh?

my spagetthi didn't turn out al dante. dammit. but the sauce was good.

yet another slack day at school. i didn't learn anything new today. it was elsie's birthday so we had some birthday cake and sang song in the caf after sch then went to eat at marche.

went compass point to buy more food but there wasn't much in the supermarket so i bought mostly junk food, drinks and some frozen cakes and took a taxi home.

and that's how i spent $50 in one day.

yeh?

had to wake up early for canoeing training today.. but couldn't get myself to get up so i forcefully dragged my body off the bed and landed painfully on the floor. that woke me up.
canoeing training was fun and tiring as usual.. haha heard heard other ppl saying they couldn't get out of bed this morning too.

after training went for lunch again at army market. we all ordered food from that taiwanese stall that gives huge portions of food. i decided to order a $4 "value set" fish and rice. i felt ripped off cos with the $5 normal set you could get another huge piece of fish. value meal my ASS.

after that i FINALLY went shopping for food at hougang point. bought lots of pasta stuff and meats for my upcoming pasta frenzy. i saw freddo(frog) chocolates so i bought them too. somehow they're kinda nostalgic cause my aunt used to buy lots of them from australia when i was young. also bought eggs, orange juice, canned soup and meat. and those arnott shape crackers(another nostalgic thingy)

i decided to make steak for dinner with my newly bought chuck tender beef. since i had NO experience in cooking steak, i just dumped some random seasoning powder, chilli powder and herbs onto the meat and threw it into the frying pan. it turned out to be FREAKING NICE, although i overcooked it to medium rather than medium-rare. gonna try cheese steaks next but then i'll have to go supermarket for more meat.

i will sleep hungry tonight because there is no more food. looking foward to some real food tomorrow at my neighbour's house. the feeling you get from sleeping with an empty stomach SUCKS so i i'm gonna start donating my savings to some children's fund.

crap now everyone knows about the arctic monkeys. soon its gonna turn into some huge pop shit in singapore and they'll be playing the songs over and over again on the stupid radio and mtv. that really sucks. oh well.

today was academically unsuccessful. but it still would've been a great day except for the fact that the lift broke down again.

behind.

a little more than a year before, i could've never imagined how my life would be like today. being suddenly put into this kind of situation hasn't been easy, but it sure has been fun.

so it looks like its time to take my life a bit more seriously.

i'll need to:
-shop for REAL food or i'll be eating canned food everyday
-bank in the money
-start recording my expenses
-wipe the dust off my study table
-clean up my room
-scrub the soot off that pot i burnt the rice with.

i'll try to accomplish ALL of this over the weekend.

ceh?

it is DONE. for convenience's sake i have decided to give up my dream of setting up a chain of nasi briyani restaurants and instead going to jc. i am definately gonna regret it in a way but i'm looking on the brightside, which is still kinda good.

ok i'm don't want to shove this onto my tagboard so i'll put my pure honest thoughts here:

-how have i misled ppl into thinking that i slacked for o levels? did i ever say i wasn't studying? because i never denied studying at all. look at prelim 2 a maths. even though i failed it again i had studied for it ALOT and u guys knew it. and laughed at me.

-about the slacking part, yes its TRUE i still slacked more than i would've liked to during the o level period. in the 1-2 months before o levels i was still playing glen's PSP day in class and the going out for occasional LAN dota-ing. but the big difference here was that i actually got down to serious studying when it was time for it. (i'm not trying to imply that i slacked and got gd results, i worked hard for it)

-crab friends. i don't see how you guys have assumed you are the ones unless you had been discouraging me from studying, which i did not notice?

-main point here: how has my apparent impression of a slacker pissed ppl off? have i affected ppl with my so-called "misleading" and make them think its all ok because ming tuan seems to be slacking so he'll suck like shit? or is it that ppl didn't expect me to do like that so now for some personal reasons they're unhappy with my results? answers to these are optional.

"you're missing the point. you led us to think that you were slacking." that is known as a LOGICAL FALLACY.(yes i have been listening in GP class) and that kind of statement goes nowhere.

i don't expect these questions to be answered and i don't expect you to see my point of view since you have always been so self-righteous.

ok anyway i would like to thank all the ppl who have congratulated me on my results over the pass week (family, friends, neighbours, relatives)i really appreciate it.
tomorrow will be the last day of the holidays... going sentosa for CG outing and probably staying over there and catching first train to sch the next day. sounds like lotsa fun. after that i'm gonna pull up my socks and start catching up in the syllabus. MUST start taking education seriously.

veh?

the thought just popped up in my head. it said don't forget. but i don't even know what i'm not supposed to forget.

it was a cold lonely night as i walked back home from the bus stop. suddenly there was sweet beautiful ROCK. some van was parked by the road playing AC/DC hells bells. it was freaking surreal. nightwalks are always surreal.

BEH?

today was THE DAY.

so it started with sitting in the hall listening to hakboon's speech on how suck the school was this year. getting my results was sort of anti climax. i was expecting to get the slip and slowly open it to reveal my fate but i then before it was my turn i saw our class list on the desk with numbers beside our names. i checked my name and the number was 10.

it took me awhile to realise that was my freaking score. TEN. UNBELIEVEABLE. i thought i would be getting 14-15 but somehow i got TEN. derric and friends were like "WTH ming tuan got TEN! closet mugger!"

well, i don't see what the hell is wrong with studying for o levels. YES i did actually study hard for o levels and i'm not gonna deny it. in fact, i'm proud that a total non mugger like me was able to pull through the studying process.

the breakdown:

English A1 (saras expected me to be surprised but NO i wasn't)
Combined Humans A2 (somehow did it)
Geog A1
Maths A1
A Maths B3 (my first pass for a maths)
Phy A2
Chem C5 (expected)
Chinese B3

i'd like to thank the friends who pushed me on to study for o levels everytime i felt like slacking and provided the peer pressure which really kept me going, and thnx also to those crab friends who kept telling me to stop mugging, which motivated me to work even harder to pwn their asses.

now with 10 pts, i have given myself 2 options:
-stay in sa
-go poly

i will really have to think about it over the weekend. meanwhile, there's canoeing training tomorrow. (actually its today) finally, a canoeing training with canoes. shd be fun.

O lvls gg no RM.

heh?

haha miss k really didn't come again so it was a perfect day in school except that i missed a stop when i fell asleep on the bus home, which sucked.

summary

o level results coming out on friday. then i'll have to make decisions. sian. i HATE decisions. i don't really care how many points i get anymore, i have a feeling that i'll just look at the result slip and go BEH?

its been more than a month since my life has TOTALLY changed. yup, a whirlwind month for me. for those who have asked me whats all this bullshit on the more recent entries, some background info: my family has suddenly migrated to dubai because my father got a job there, so i'm stuck living here in singapore with my 1 year older brother. so yes i'm FREE. i can do WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT. but NO. i can't. the burden of responsibilty weigh me down. living without parents is SO overrated.

new life, new school, new people. new life has been really interesting so far and there has been lots of fun times, like going out whenever i want, my many mishaps in the kitchen, exploding appliances etc. my house is still in a mess though. REALLY gotta clean it up one day. i've lost count of how many times i've told myself this.

SAJC has been a really great place, got to meet lots of ppl, making new friends, meeting old ones and i have no regrets coming here instead of slacking off my 1st 3 months. the great days of going out with the og and cg ppl will be something to remember for some time.

sadly, jc education kinda sucks for me. really. i'm definately not cut out for A levels studies. i've spent most of the lectures and tutorials refining my art of sleeping unnoticed. and the marathon sleeping during lectures. its FREAKING BORING(for me). maybe i just don't "get" the point of converting partial fractions or all the econs bullshit. and looking at how hard ppl mug for a levels, (not that prominent in sajc, i'm referring to certai jc's) poly seems very appealing now in its educational aspect. decisions decisions.

first lesson was econs. i passed the mini-test, which was a miracle considering how i haven't learnt anything about econs so far. after that was chinese. mr center-putting was missing from the class so we spent the free period talking about.. stuff.
lit was as usual. then the class skipped econs lecture except for a few guai kias. went to sc to play carom. the carom boards suck cause they are so rough but dai hong was owned everyone.
after GP tutorial there was class photo taking, which was quite interesting with all the lame poses. then went to play pool with josh and joel. i seriously have NO pool skillzzz and i was the only newbie there but i somehow beat joel once. i really sucked and missed lots of shots but somehow all my balls disappeared slowly and i won. haha. got owned in most of the games though.

everything will be perfect if miss K doesn't come tomorrow.
nothing can be better than it is right now.. i kinda like this life. more stuff is gonna change. so be it.

leh?

what is keeping me sane? the chocopies. but i just finished the last one.

peh?

the hairdryer exploded today. it waz Ub3r C00L.

ceh?

i really tried to sleep early yesterday because i was quite exhausted from x country and canoeing training. i turned in at 10.30, which is the earliest i've slept in 3 months. then at 1.20 am i was awoken by the sounds of the printer in my room. YES the printer. and its NOISY.
it turns out that my brother had decided to print some stuff at 1.20am in my room while i slept peacefully nearby. i was groggy so i shouted something at him and he just gave some crap reasons on why he needed to print his work at this freaking hour while i was sleeping and that it was MY fault that i was sleeping in that room. seriously, he seems so retarded sometimes why can't he print it in the MORNING when the sun comes up.
i tried going back to sleep when about 15 mins later he starts printing more stuff so i mumble stfu or something and try to go back to sleep but i ended up staring at the ceiling in a semi-conscious state for 2 whole hours feeling pissed at tired and the next thing i knew, my alarm clock was ringing. wtffff i didn't even feel like i had slept.

i stumbled through the whole day feeling dazed and confused. btw dazed and confused is a nice show.

went for another nightwalk to get back the documents. it was even more surreal this time because i was feeling super seh. the 5 minute walk felt like forever. and when i returned home, it was like coming back from some long holiday. cool. i swear i could've walked the whole night.

zeh?

i made tuna sandwiches today with the last of my bread. now i have no bread. but i still have tuna. 3 cans of delicious tuna.

took a night walk today to pass some documents to my mum's friend. it seemed so surreal because the paths were all dark and the lights from the lamp posts were all shiny and the wind was so cold and it was all quiet. sounds like a typical night walk but you have to experience it to know the feeling. but wow it was weird.

it is done.

a summary of my typical saturday morning:

wake up at 10am or later.
check my comp for msgs
reply msgs
chat for half an hour
wash up
watch tv
clean up some moldy stuff on the floor
watch tv
eat some leftover crap
attempt do chores for a minute
watch tv
continue with chores for another minute and then decide to do them later
play comp
watch tv
ponder about meaning and purpose in life for 2 seconds
watch tv
raid the fridge for more leftover crap

chsscouts anniversary so i'm going back to the old sch for the dinner later yay.

eh?

at the end of my sec 4 yr, i vowed to join a slacker cca in jc. joined canoeing and ran 10 rounds for 1st training. nostalgic.

shaun told me how to microwave frozen pratas with cheese. my prata exploded. it was like poof.

psssh

the rain is destroying me. i can't dry my clothes, can't go out to buy food.

wanted to join hockey for cca today but there was like no place to sign up so i went to join canoeing. uh.

ate ice cream for dinner. everythings really screwed up here but its fun. yeaaaa.

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i dreamt about infinity.

it was ub3R. it's like INFINITY>YOU so i got wtfpwned by infinity but it was cool.

1st week

its only the first week of 2006 and my house is already getting messy. my whole room is getting piled up with the stuff i throw around and stuff in the kitchen is lying all over the place. laundry is a mess. clothes all over the place, some clothes still lying in the dryer. and i'm running out of FOOD. my straits times has mysteriously stopped too.

sajc has been fun so far with OG3 which is quite an ON grp and leader DEREK da man. chose my subject combi this morning(econ/lit/maths/physicsH1) even though i haven't taken lit for 2 years. it just looks like a fun subject i guess.

orientation finale was great tho the sound system really sux but no one cared since we were all busy screaming and jumping about.

it been a great week but FINALLY there's a weekend. hopefully i'll take this PRECIOUS time to sort out the stuff at home and get some freaking sleep. SLEEEEP. the thought of waking up when there's daylight has never been so appealing. no stupid alarm clocks too.

again

stuff i did during holidays:

-dubai
-rode ATV
-got to lvl 42 in wow
-movies
-cycled half of singapore
-other misc. stuff

new year fireworks were kewl.

new year resolutions:
take my education seriously
keep the house tidy
start saving money
to get a psp
and a ps3
and everything else

no doubt i will fail in every single one.