behind.

a little more than a year before, i could've never imagined how my life would be like today. being suddenly put into this kind of situation hasn't been easy, but it sure has been fun.

so it looks like its time to take my life a bit more seriously.

i'll need to:
-shop for REAL food or i'll be eating canned food everyday
-bank in the money
-start recording my expenses
-wipe the dust off my study table
-clean up my room
-scrub the soot off that pot i burnt the rice with.

i'll try to accomplish ALL of this over the weekend.

ceh?

it is DONE. for convenience's sake i have decided to give up my dream of setting up a chain of nasi briyani restaurants and instead going to jc. i am definately gonna regret it in a way but i'm looking on the brightside, which is still kinda good.

ok i'm don't want to shove this onto my tagboard so i'll put my pure honest thoughts here:

-how have i misled ppl into thinking that i slacked for o levels? did i ever say i wasn't studying? because i never denied studying at all. look at prelim 2 a maths. even though i failed it again i had studied for it ALOT and u guys knew it. and laughed at me.

-about the slacking part, yes its TRUE i still slacked more than i would've liked to during the o level period. in the 1-2 months before o levels i was still playing glen's PSP day in class and the going out for occasional LAN dota-ing. but the big difference here was that i actually got down to serious studying when it was time for it. (i'm not trying to imply that i slacked and got gd results, i worked hard for it)

-crab friends. i don't see how you guys have assumed you are the ones unless you had been discouraging me from studying, which i did not notice?

-main point here: how has my apparent impression of a slacker pissed ppl off? have i affected ppl with my so-called "misleading" and make them think its all ok because ming tuan seems to be slacking so he'll suck like shit? or is it that ppl didn't expect me to do like that so now for some personal reasons they're unhappy with my results? answers to these are optional.

"you're missing the point. you led us to think that you were slacking." that is known as a LOGICAL FALLACY.(yes i have been listening in GP class) and that kind of statement goes nowhere.

i don't expect these questions to be answered and i don't expect you to see my point of view since you have always been so self-righteous.

ok anyway i would like to thank all the ppl who have congratulated me on my results over the pass week (family, friends, neighbours, relatives)i really appreciate it.
tomorrow will be the last day of the holidays... going sentosa for CG outing and probably staying over there and catching first train to sch the next day. sounds like lotsa fun. after that i'm gonna pull up my socks and start catching up in the syllabus. MUST start taking education seriously.

veh?

the thought just popped up in my head. it said don't forget. but i don't even know what i'm not supposed to forget.

it was a cold lonely night as i walked back home from the bus stop. suddenly there was sweet beautiful ROCK. some van was parked by the road playing AC/DC hells bells. it was freaking surreal. nightwalks are always surreal.

BEH?

today was THE DAY.

so it started with sitting in the hall listening to hakboon's speech on how suck the school was this year. getting my results was sort of anti climax. i was expecting to get the slip and slowly open it to reveal my fate but i then before it was my turn i saw our class list on the desk with numbers beside our names. i checked my name and the number was 10.

it took me awhile to realise that was my freaking score. TEN. UNBELIEVEABLE. i thought i would be getting 14-15 but somehow i got TEN. derric and friends were like "WTH ming tuan got TEN! closet mugger!"

well, i don't see what the hell is wrong with studying for o levels. YES i did actually study hard for o levels and i'm not gonna deny it. in fact, i'm proud that a total non mugger like me was able to pull through the studying process.

the breakdown:

English A1 (saras expected me to be surprised but NO i wasn't)
Combined Humans A2 (somehow did it)
Geog A1
Maths A1
A Maths B3 (my first pass for a maths)
Phy A2
Chem C5 (expected)
Chinese B3

i'd like to thank the friends who pushed me on to study for o levels everytime i felt like slacking and provided the peer pressure which really kept me going, and thnx also to those crab friends who kept telling me to stop mugging, which motivated me to work even harder to pwn their asses.

now with 10 pts, i have given myself 2 options:
-stay in sa
-go poly

i will really have to think about it over the weekend. meanwhile, there's canoeing training tomorrow. (actually its today) finally, a canoeing training with canoes. shd be fun.

O lvls gg no RM.

heh?

haha miss k really didn't come again so it was a perfect day in school except that i missed a stop when i fell asleep on the bus home, which sucked.

summary

o level results coming out on friday. then i'll have to make decisions. sian. i HATE decisions. i don't really care how many points i get anymore, i have a feeling that i'll just look at the result slip and go BEH?

its been more than a month since my life has TOTALLY changed. yup, a whirlwind month for me. for those who have asked me whats all this bullshit on the more recent entries, some background info: my family has suddenly migrated to dubai because my father got a job there, so i'm stuck living here in singapore with my 1 year older brother. so yes i'm FREE. i can do WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT. but NO. i can't. the burden of responsibilty weigh me down. living without parents is SO overrated.

new life, new school, new people. new life has been really interesting so far and there has been lots of fun times, like going out whenever i want, my many mishaps in the kitchen, exploding appliances etc. my house is still in a mess though. REALLY gotta clean it up one day. i've lost count of how many times i've told myself this.

SAJC has been a really great place, got to meet lots of ppl, making new friends, meeting old ones and i have no regrets coming here instead of slacking off my 1st 3 months. the great days of going out with the og and cg ppl will be something to remember for some time.

sadly, jc education kinda sucks for me. really. i'm definately not cut out for A levels studies. i've spent most of the lectures and tutorials refining my art of sleeping unnoticed. and the marathon sleeping during lectures. its FREAKING BORING(for me). maybe i just don't "get" the point of converting partial fractions or all the econs bullshit. and looking at how hard ppl mug for a levels, (not that prominent in sajc, i'm referring to certai jc's) poly seems very appealing now in its educational aspect. decisions decisions.

first lesson was econs. i passed the mini-test, which was a miracle considering how i haven't learnt anything about econs so far. after that was chinese. mr center-putting was missing from the class so we spent the free period talking about.. stuff.
lit was as usual. then the class skipped econs lecture except for a few guai kias. went to sc to play carom. the carom boards suck cause they are so rough but dai hong was owned everyone.
after GP tutorial there was class photo taking, which was quite interesting with all the lame poses. then went to play pool with josh and joel. i seriously have NO pool skillzzz and i was the only newbie there but i somehow beat joel once. i really sucked and missed lots of shots but somehow all my balls disappeared slowly and i won. haha. got owned in most of the games though.

everything will be perfect if miss K doesn't come tomorrow.
nothing can be better than it is right now.. i kinda like this life. more stuff is gonna change. so be it.

leh?

what is keeping me sane? the chocopies. but i just finished the last one.

peh?

the hairdryer exploded today. it waz Ub3r C00L.

ceh?

i really tried to sleep early yesterday because i was quite exhausted from x country and canoeing training. i turned in at 10.30, which is the earliest i've slept in 3 months. then at 1.20 am i was awoken by the sounds of the printer in my room. YES the printer. and its NOISY.
it turns out that my brother had decided to print some stuff at 1.20am in my room while i slept peacefully nearby. i was groggy so i shouted something at him and he just gave some crap reasons on why he needed to print his work at this freaking hour while i was sleeping and that it was MY fault that i was sleeping in that room. seriously, he seems so retarded sometimes why can't he print it in the MORNING when the sun comes up.
i tried going back to sleep when about 15 mins later he starts printing more stuff so i mumble stfu or something and try to go back to sleep but i ended up staring at the ceiling in a semi-conscious state for 2 whole hours feeling pissed at tired and the next thing i knew, my alarm clock was ringing. wtffff i didn't even feel like i had slept.

i stumbled through the whole day feeling dazed and confused. btw dazed and confused is a nice show.

went for another nightwalk to get back the documents. it was even more surreal this time because i was feeling super seh. the 5 minute walk felt like forever. and when i returned home, it was like coming back from some long holiday. cool. i swear i could've walked the whole night.

zeh?

i made tuna sandwiches today with the last of my bread. now i have no bread. but i still have tuna. 3 cans of delicious tuna.

took a night walk today to pass some documents to my mum's friend. it seemed so surreal because the paths were all dark and the lights from the lamp posts were all shiny and the wind was so cold and it was all quiet. sounds like a typical night walk but you have to experience it to know the feeling. but wow it was weird.

it is done.

a summary of my typical saturday morning:

wake up at 10am or later.
check my comp for msgs
reply msgs
chat for half an hour
wash up
watch tv
clean up some moldy stuff on the floor
watch tv
eat some leftover crap
attempt do chores for a minute
watch tv
continue with chores for another minute and then decide to do them later
play comp
watch tv
ponder about meaning and purpose in life for 2 seconds
watch tv
raid the fridge for more leftover crap

chsscouts anniversary so i'm going back to the old sch for the dinner later yay.

eh?

at the end of my sec 4 yr, i vowed to join a slacker cca in jc. joined canoeing and ran 10 rounds for 1st training. nostalgic.

shaun told me how to microwave frozen pratas with cheese. my prata exploded. it was like poof.

psssh

the rain is destroying me. i can't dry my clothes, can't go out to buy food.

wanted to join hockey for cca today but there was like no place to sign up so i went to join canoeing. uh.

ate ice cream for dinner. everythings really screwed up here but its fun. yeaaaa.

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i dreamt about infinity.

it was ub3R. it's like INFINITY>YOU so i got wtfpwned by infinity but it was cool.

1st week

its only the first week of 2006 and my house is already getting messy. my whole room is getting piled up with the stuff i throw around and stuff in the kitchen is lying all over the place. laundry is a mess. clothes all over the place, some clothes still lying in the dryer. and i'm running out of FOOD. my straits times has mysteriously stopped too.

sajc has been fun so far with OG3 which is quite an ON grp and leader DEREK da man. chose my subject combi this morning(econ/lit/maths/physicsH1) even though i haven't taken lit for 2 years. it just looks like a fun subject i guess.

orientation finale was great tho the sound system really sux but no one cared since we were all busy screaming and jumping about.

it been a great week but FINALLY there's a weekend. hopefully i'll take this PRECIOUS time to sort out the stuff at home and get some freaking sleep. SLEEEEP. the thought of waking up when there's daylight has never been so appealing. no stupid alarm clocks too.

again

stuff i did during holidays:

-dubai
-rode ATV
-got to lvl 42 in wow
-movies
-cycled half of singapore
-other misc. stuff

new year fireworks were kewl.

new year resolutions:
take my education seriously
keep the house tidy
start saving money
to get a psp
and a ps3
and everything else

no doubt i will fail in every single one.

its going to be a very interesting year. NO MORE PARENTAL CONTROL. YESSSSSH.

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chma

chma was quite interesting. Youth day celebrations in morning, had to do the stupid tile paintings. after that went to rehearse wif new amps. got an almost perfect run. jackhammer was still working.

went jerick's house in afternoon and back to school. tom sux. another string snapped so had to run to the music room to get another one. played around somemore and ANOTHER string snapped. this time no more spares but i didn't have to use that string for the song so it was ok.

During soloists and piano performance everyone was like zzzzz and alot of ppl playing around outside the hall haha. stupid aircon was spoilt so it was damn hot in the hall. and the sound system sounded quite weird.

our turn came. went up, test, no sound. turns out that THE jackhammer had no battery WTH. it was working perfectly in the morning. so i uhhhhed and used the amp distortion. whole thing was quite ok though the speakers in the hall are quite screwed up and for some reason they dun let us full blast the amps and mic-ed them up instead. midde of last chorus, ANOTHER string snapped. WTH. i'm never gonna use this tuning or play that song again.

then after everyone played ronin came and owned our asses. fei yang won overall award. he's damn pro.

tom shall now lie in his case till o levels are over. i think. dun feel like playing anymore. really time to study now. really.