With Pride We Need, Sixpacks

Resistance is Fertile

Amidst,
Endless torrents of angry shouting
Stern faces and a grave warning.

Amidst,
Order, order says the dude beside
As timmy in front goes on backslide.

Amidst,
Their faces straight, though their minds are not
A resentful past, not to be forgot.

There are chuckles and laughter, hearty and loud,
from the back, and futility dies.

Credits to Shaun for the title, which as he described it, came to him "as if God reached out from the Heavens with a hand and put in in his head." Specialist training has been rather tough so far, with the many canteen breaks, afternoon naps and jogging on the spot that we have to go through. At least that's for the first week. Not expecting a status quo though.

Personal Qualities

"an ardous task that involved removing bird droppings from the upper roof of the facility."

Just noticed this on my Personal Qualities sheet. Should be worth at least a +5 to community service.

Merciful

Much ought to be said about the mercy and grace of God but I think my A level grades sum it up quite nicely.

After 3 weeks of false alarms, I finally found myself in the school hall waiting for my slip. Experienced a variety of emotions when Ms K finally handed it to me after some rambling about my absence (late) from the hall earlier. In order of appearance:

1. Disbelief- That I had nothing below a B.

2. Joy- Hooray.

3. Gratefulness- To God for being so merciful and saving me time and again (O levels, Promos, A levels) despite me always being ungrateful and complacent, not learning from my mistakes. Felt like I was being given a 9871245245240891-th chance at life.

4. Guilt- Upon realisation that it was by God's grace alone that I, the undeserving fool made it through.

5. Helplessness- For I didn't really dare to confront those who didn't do that well. I guess I'm not that good at words when it comes to comforting people and I felt really helpless just standing there watching some of my friends crying. There was also an awkward situation involving an inquiry into someone's results which I literally ran away from because of an unexpected reaction.

6. Confusion- Beh!? I had seriously made preparations for the worst but the unexpected circumstances I now found myself in was overwhelming.

7. Disappointment- An issue of my pride, which I should not be bothered with having already been blessed with such a miracle. But still, I thought about what I could have achieved if I had bothered to study harder.

And so the A levels are really all over now and for the better or for the worst, there is nothing I can do about anything.